writing, music and all things my opinion

I cried watching "empire"... yea... Terrence Howard's character says: "I started selling drugs when I was 9 years old, in philadelphia, I did it to feed myself. But it was the music that played in my head that kept me alive when I thought I was going to get shot. And it was the melodies I dreamt about that kept me warm when I was sleeping in the streets...you see? music saved my life. Times have changed though, the internet has destroyed the musicians ability to make money, because our work, is downloaded for free online. Now it's impossible for the disenfranchised kids growing up in the projects to overcome poverty the way that I did" I wanted to stand up and cheer, but people would look at me weird... set there, turn that over in your mind... sure getting free music might not hurt those super famous, already signed and set "rock/rap/pop stars" you see on tv.., the ones with mansions, the ones you think represent musicians all across the boa

heard the most ridiculous "mansplaining" ever today... a dude has a whole channel dedicated to trying to prove "feminists" wrong... and one woman, who I don't even know if she was a feminist, was saying she was taught how to not get raped, and how boys should also be taught you know, not to do it, and if you know anything about rape culture, doing this like "preventative from the woman's side of things" too much leads to people thinking (and I'm guessing a lot of people reading this might also) that if a woman doesn't kick and scream and fight back at all, that it's okay... 1) no 2) NO! 3) nope we need to start teaching men what rape is, most don't know and I'm not kidding... most think (and maybe you do too), that it's mostly a stranger in an alleyway in the dark, and most of the prevention measures are geared toward that thinking, which doesn't help if you are alone with a good looking male friend that you trust a

I feel so embarrassed about things I used to be ignorant about sometimes, like how I used to think Lars Ulrich was a jerk lol no, but seriously, I used to like listen to the media and it's weird that they never came out and said "he's wrong" but they implied it so heavily that it just like influenced my opinion... but NOW that I am no longer ignorant to like what that's all about, I'm like you know what, he was right all along and it's not about "not sharing art" any artist that's a real artist would love to just have enough money to live on, and survive, and if they had that, and were set, they would love to just give away their art... I promise, even him... but these people (though the ones whose name you know are probably rich) like 95% of artist in the world's population can't make a dime because people think this way... "art is meant to be shared" which is absolutely true but like you want and expect these people to s

I don't consider myself a feminist only because I like having only one label: Christian, that trumps everything else about me, what God says is above all other opinions and causes of man... and I don't agree with everything all feminists say all the time, but I'm not dissing them, because mostly they make good points... however some might see me as a feminist simply because I have these crazy opinions that women are and should be treated equal to men, and that rape is bad... that's not me being PC, that's me being a human being if you see disagree with that I don't think I'm the one with the issue it just blows my mind the amount of people who see you as a "man hating feminist" just because you're against rape... umm I'm against rape that happens to men too... it's not my fault that 99% of rapists are male... I didn't cause that, feminists didn't brainwash those men into doing that... most feminists don't hate men at

These will be long so I'm only going to include a few, the ones that may not speak for themselves.  the christmas songs we listen to have meaning, they play over and over throughout the seasons, year after year. I have learned that the true value of any God inspired song isn't the music or the voices used to sing it but the message, the reason for God giving someone a song is to bring a message to teach us, to touch us, to fill our hearts with joy and hope... they are not purposeless... 1) 12 days if Christmas this was in my church (pleasant view's) monthly newsletter a few years ago...  The meaning of the 12 days of Christmas, From 1558 to 1829 Roman Catholics in England were not permitted to practice their faith openly. Someone during that era wrote this carol as a catechism song for young Catholics. It has two levels of meaning: the surface meaning plus a hidden meaning known only to members of their church.  Each element in the carol has a code word for a religio

I don't like making many blog posts about "dating" but I was thinking about this post I made on facebook, like it just started getting to me, it was a joke but it was this: person: "why are you single" me: "I'm the real life version of kat stratford" lol well... that IS the reason and it annoys me, it's a joke based in truth but it annoys me that if you are a male, you are expected to be yourself and if you say dumb things to get a girl, people say "poor guy" and "she should give him a chance" but if you are a girl and you don't respond or act in the exact way that males think you should based on fictional characters they've seen in action movies, you're "mean" or "clingy" or "crazy" if you are mean, it has to be comically mean but you also have to be super attractive and not wearing much... if you want to act a certain way, you have to conform it into something that i

Let's start this off by me explaining what triggered my writing this. A lot of the time I tend to talk about tv shows in a different way than most people, this is because I think differently than most people and therefore, watch things differently. Some things are mindless fluff, of course, but mainly I watch things with about a million things going through my mind at once. The psychology behind the character's behavior, memories of past behaviors of said character, relationships between characters, what they are feeling at any given moment, people they remind me of in real life, and is this an example of something that could influence my christian life, or how christianity is viewed in general. And that's just to name a few... Part of this comes from the fact that I am a writer, but that's not to say I do it on purpose to learn about writing. It's just that being a writer and having a "writer's brain" is what causes this. I made no decision to be

I just had an epiphany, like I am crying about "the breakup" and it didn't hit me fully until yesterday when I saw he was still wearing his ring... and I'm really sad for him, and I felt crazy for a minute because other people say it's weird or crazy to care about anyone famous because you don't know them... then I started thinking about it.... 90% of the people I know in real life, generally share nothing personal with me. Most, if not all the time, people gossip, talk about  the weather, talk about current events, or anything besides how they truly feel about things. Deep, personal insecurities never come up ... and some songwriters (I know from experience) put themselves into songs, they pour their hearts out when they write, and these 2 people might be the 2 songwriters that do that the MOST, they both just wear their hearts on their sleeves in their writing, so it might seem crazy to most but I probably do know more about their personality than I do about

What should be our main goal as Christians? We are to go to church to get closer to God, so that we can be changed, we don't go simply to be entertained. I personally find most church services to be fulfilling, I do enjoy myself while there... however, I feel like "entertainment" is too shallow and flippant a word to use for it but I feel like that’s what some are going to get. And some Sundays days I'm sleepy in morning service because I'm human, but I go to be faithful, and because I NEED too. We NEED to learn, we can't learn enough about God, we can't get close enough...But in today’s society you do hear a lot of complaining, that “old fashioned” churches don’t do enough “fun” things. That they don’t get up and shout and dance enough, there isn’t enough going on. People complain that although they go all the time, they still don’t have money or good health. Or that they got something from God but haven’t had a “yes” answer again and I’ll refer you

Because, well I just had to....  Game on Marlene... lol

As I was watching the TCA's last night I thought, this is amazing. PLL has won almost every award they have been nominated for, for the past 5 years. Us fans are so dedicated, but also it's a good show. I'm not sure many people realize this but the way PLL is written and shot, is not like other shows, it's different. It has a classic story feel to it, it takes me back to a time when the people who made tv and movies thought about every little detail, every word, every facial expression. It never followed the typical tv-mystery formula.  I started to watch eye candy and it was pretty good but I stopped because it made me want to delete facebook. Later I found out they revealed their version of "-a" and it was the worst possible choice, I thought "PLL would never go with someone that obvious" I hoped the show would pick someone that makes sense with every detail, that this has to have been planned from day 1. I thought that PLL wouldn't give in t

I get really frustrated when people tell me things like "it's just a song/tv show/book/etc." or "you care too much about that" or "you're obsessed" ... for one thing, I'm not sure what most people do, I do know most of the time people are consuming some sort of art (mostly tv) and they think if they don't care much and just watch it casually that it isn't affecting them, which isn't true... I guess I'll use a metaphor, when you consume art in a casual manner you become a mirror for those things being portrayed, you aren't aware or doing it on purpose, but over time, what you see or hear does start being reflected... when you do care about the content and contexts, and analyze what you consume (like I do) you are more like a microscope, you will take what you see or hear and analyze every aspect... (should this character have done this? is this realistic? am I like this person? should I be nicer? what does this song mean? is

My mom said something very profound yesterday, she said "in this country there are people with different beliefs, and they have a right to that (God gave us freewill) and while some of those people will kill people who disagree, being bold as a christian is not about going around forcing people to believe the way we do, being bold for us means that even if someone were to put a gun to our head and tell us to give up our faith, we are to die for our faith" That is very true, while the world's way is to try and force their beliefs, religions or opinions on others, christians are supposed to stand out. Other's kill, literally (or figuratively by bullying) for what they think or believe, christians are different, we are supposed to die for ours. That doesn't mean agreeing with others or keeping quiet about the truth, but this attitude that we are supposed to go around telling people what they are doing that's a sin before they've ever even been in church, it

Okay I have to talk about this some more, because I just can't stand it. Look, it's alright if you don't like Alison, everyone has a right to their opinions, plus Ali has done some awful things. All I'm asking is for people to step back and ask themselves why they hate Alison. Did you ever ask yourself? At first I wasn't even sure this that this is a feminist thing, because people don't hate Mona the way they hate Alison and Mona is also a girl. Then I thought about it and I thought; okay so maybe it's sort of a feminist thing after all. Let's compare Mona and Alison for a minute. At a very young age both of these girls realized what most girls don't realize until they are in their 20's. Some don't ever realize it at all. At around 13 years old Mona and Alison not only realized that women and girls are treated unfairly and judged based on what they can do for men, they both mastered manipulating this fact as if it were a game of Mario. No ma

I'm someone that loves to find the deeper meaning in things, and I usually can catch on pretty quickly. What I didn't realize until Heather Hogan pointed it out in a recap was that on "pretty little liars" there is something going on. I posted what she said on my facebook and I'll summarize it, the dollhouse was doing to the girls, what rosewood had already been doing to them, and what in real life, our life, society does to us. A lot of the subtle commentaries I picked up on, because it's not that hard. In season 1 we get that even the best of mom's (ashley marin) says to her daughter "you CAN'T mess up... in this town, what people think of you matters" that sets the stage for the entire show. I love Ashley but she sleeps with a cop so he will drop shoplifting charges against hanna, setting the example that it doesn't matter if you actually do the right thing. It only matters if people don't find out about your mistakes. People say t