writing, music and all things my opinion

I'm not even about to explain any of this, so don't even ask. I just wrote my feelings and this came out   you don't have the first clue how to love there is not a piece of you that's selfless and every time I'm forced to remember you I get sick, uneasy and restless I know what love is in fact I'm probably in love now  and I'd take a bullet of any kind to keep him safe somehow Isn't that the one that was the aim of your stones that you tried to throw and then I begged and pleaded  for you to let me take the blow not so fun is it now that you're  at the bottom with those rocks  but your chains could never hold  someone who knows she always held the locks don't even try to tell me that you're sorry I already know you much too well I'm too strong to let you break me  and your lies came straight from...  hello here's your wake up call  you never were the best  everything yo...

I feel so embarrassed about things I used to be ignorant about sometimes, like how I used to think Lars Ulrich was a jerk lol no, but seriously, I used to like listen to the media and it's weird that they never came out and said "he's wrong" but they implied it so heavily that it just like influenced my opinion... but NOW that I am no longer ignorant to like what that's all about, I'm like you know what, he was right all along and it's not about "not sharing art" any artist that's a real artist would love to just have enough money to live on, and survive, and if they had that, and were set, they would love to just give away their art... I promise, even him... but these people (though the ones whose name you know are probably rich) like 95% of artist in the world's population can't make a dime because people think this way... "art is meant to be shared" which is absolutely true but like you want and expect these people to s...

What should be our main goal as Christians? We are to go to church to get closer to God, so that we can be changed, we don't go simply to be entertained. I personally find most church services to be fulfilling, I do enjoy myself while there... however, I feel like "entertainment" is too shallow and flippant a word to use for it but I feel like that’s what some are going to get. And some Sundays days I'm sleepy in morning service because I'm human, but I go to be faithful, and because I NEED too. We NEED to learn, we can't learn enough about God, we can't get close enough...But in today’s society you do hear a lot of complaining, that “old fashioned” churches don’t do enough “fun” things. That they don’t get up and shout and dance enough, there isn’t enough going on. People complain that although they go all the time, they still don’t have money or good health. Or that they got something from God but haven’t had a “yes” answer again and I’ll refer you ...

Because, well I just had to....  Game on Marlene... lol

As I was watching the TCA's last night I thought, this is amazing. PLL has won almost every award they have been nominated for, for the past 5 years. Us fans are so dedicated, but also it's a good show. I'm not sure many people realize this but the way PLL is written and shot, is not like other shows, it's different. It has a classic story feel to it, it takes me back to a time when the people who made tv and movies thought about every little detail, every word, every facial expression. It never followed the typical tv-mystery formula.  I started to watch eye candy and it was pretty good but I stopped because it made me want to delete facebook. Later I found out they revealed their version of "-a" and it was the worst possible choice, I thought "PLL would never go with someone that obvious" I hoped the show would pick someone that makes sense with every detail, that this has to have been planned from day 1. I thought that PLL wouldn't give in t...

I get really frustrated when people tell me things like "it's just a song/tv show/book/etc." or "you care too much about that" or "you're obsessed" ... for one thing, I'm not sure what most people do, I do know most of the time people are consuming some sort of art (mostly tv) and they think if they don't care much and just watch it casually that it isn't affecting them, which isn't true... I guess I'll use a metaphor, when you consume art in a casual manner you become a mirror for those things being portrayed, you aren't aware or doing it on purpose, but over time, what you see or hear does start being reflected... when you do care about the content and contexts, and analyze what you consume (like I do) you are more like a microscope, you will take what you see or hear and analyze every aspect... (should this character have done this? is this realistic? am I like this person? should I be nicer? what does this song mean? is ...

   A few months ago, when the electric was out, I still had battery on my laptop and nothing to do. I tried to write more of the mystery short story I have been working on, but I couldn't. I knew I had something to write, so I just started writing and this is what came out. I don't know if this is it, but I ended it with room to add more stories about him, true stories. If anyone wants to send me a private message of something he did that could fit in with this, please do and we will see what happens.          "There was a man, he was very unique, just about everything he did  wasn't  considered normal. Yet, everyone he had met liked him, and called him a great man. That man was my grandpa. He grew up in the country, and was born with slight hearing loss. But he worked hard his entire life, and went to school until the sixth grade. School was harder for him than most because of his hearing issues. But that was okay because he liked ...

there are 2 common interpretations of holly golightly. Men tend to think of her as a "gold-digging social climber" who is mean to the poor guys that buy her things.  And then females tend to see her beauty and cute outfits and admire her for her independence, and laugh because she is a "cool man-eater". They like the character as a trend, as a way to seem glamorous in their own taste in literature or movies.  After watching it myself, I'd have to say that neither of these are correct at all. These reviews, and general opinions, were the reason I didn't want to watch it to begin with. I should have just ignored those because they are inaccurate.  I cried for half of the movie, because she was a broken girl, and a survivor. Yet, she was unable to let herself love truly until she had nothing to lose. She is a very realistic character and very complex but likable in my opinion, she didn't simply love glamour and money, she wanted an interesting life and t...

Not feeling like thinking today, so I'm taking a break from the female musician series this week. Instead I am just going to post some random, cool videos in this blog, some from PLL and some about PLL, and some other cool songs. I'll be keeping the focus on talented females though. this scene was epic, it was so well edited and the intensity behind what's going on is well portrayed by this. found this one too.  it's very heartbreaking this makes me feel sad for Jason and Alison... this one just makes me feel bad for ali, but also it makes me admire her. alison is so misunderstood. this is a great song, set to clips from "one night with the king" a movie about queen Esther  random song I love  I love this movie, it's one of my favorites. Even though it's one of the saddest I've ever seen there is truth in it. Truth and good always wins in the end. The truth will eventually be revealed and love, true and re...

this is going to be hard to do, and it will be a long list of songs that either remind me of cody, songs he sang, or songs dedicated to him, so I'll just get right into it. 1) wish you were here by pink floyd this was Cody's and my song, officially. we didn't live close to each other and we didn't drive yet so we didn't get to hang out in person. Cody decided this was our song and he would play his guitar and sing it. 2) glycerine by bush cody played this song probably more than any other, and I would get so sick of hearing it because he played it so much, I would like to hear him play it again. 3) I walk the line by Johnny Cash Cody used to sing this all the time, he could really sound just like Johnny 4) miss you love by silverchair Cody probably sounded most like Daniel Johns naturally, more than any other singer. every time I hear silverchair I think of him. the weird thing about this song is that I listened to it about 2 months before he passe...

As a christian, I think about art, I think about the fact that almost everyone in the world can sing, some better than others but literally everyone has the natural ability to sing instead of talk, without anyone even explaining how, or what it feels like... we are born with the ability to know melody and rhythm, a lot of people say they are tone deaf that aren't. Only a very small amount of people are actually tone deaf, it just means you can't differentiate tones, if you can hear yourself singing off key, you are not tone deaf. Anyway, we start out learning by learning the abc's in song form, we remember things in a rhythm better than just in a spoken list. We were built this way for a reason. God had a reason for music and singing, it's to praise Him, and it's a gift we all get to enjoy. One of the first things in the Bible was God creating the earth, being creative is a trait we get from God, since we are made in His likeness. So it really confuses me that peop...