writing, music and all things my opinion

I feel so embarrassed about things I used to be ignorant about sometimes, like how I used to think Lars Ulrich was a jerk lol no, but seriously, I used to like listen to the media and it's weird that they never came out and said "he's wrong" but they implied it so heavily that it just like influenced my opinion... but NOW that I am no longer ignorant to like what that's all about, I'm like you know what, he was right all along and it's not about "not sharing art" any artist that's a real artist would love to just have enough money to live on, and survive, and if they had that, and were set, they would love to just give away their art... I promise, even him... but these people (though the ones whose name you know are probably rich) like 95% of artist in the world's population can't make a dime because people think this way... "art is meant to be shared" which is absolutely true but like you want and expect these people to s...

I don't like making many blog posts about "dating" but I was thinking about this post I made on facebook, like it just started getting to me, it was a joke but it was this: person: "why are you single" me: "I'm the real life version of kat stratford" lol well... that IS the reason and it annoys me, it's a joke based in truth but it annoys me that if you are a male, you are expected to be yourself and if you say dumb things to get a girl, people say "poor guy" and "she should give him a chance" but if you are a girl and you don't respond or act in the exact way that males think you should based on fictional characters they've seen in action movies, you're "mean" or "clingy" or "crazy" if you are mean, it has to be comically mean but you also have to be super attractive and not wearing much... if you want to act a certain way, you have to conform it into something that i...

Let's start this off by me explaining what triggered my writing this. A lot of the time I tend to talk about tv shows in a different way than most people, this is because I think differently than most people and therefore, watch things differently. Some things are mindless fluff, of course, but mainly I watch things with about a million things going through my mind at once. The psychology behind the character's behavior, memories of past behaviors of said character, relationships between characters, what they are feeling at any given moment, people they remind me of in real life, and is this an example of something that could influence my christian life, or how christianity is viewed in general. And that's just to name a few... Part of this comes from the fact that I am a writer, but that's not to say I do it on purpose to learn about writing. It's just that being a writer and having a "writer's brain" is what causes this. I made no decision to be...

I just had an epiphany, like I am crying about "the breakup" and it didn't hit me fully until yesterday when I saw he was still wearing his ring... and I'm really sad for him, and I felt crazy for a minute because other people say it's weird or crazy to care about anyone famous because you don't know them... then I started thinking about it.... 90% of the people I know in real life, generally share nothing personal with me. Most, if not all the time, people gossip, talk about  the weather, talk about current events, or anything besides how they truly feel about things. Deep, personal insecurities never come up ... and some songwriters (I know from experience) put themselves into songs, they pour their hearts out when they write, and these 2 people might be the 2 songwriters that do that the MOST, they both just wear their hearts on their sleeves in their writing, so it might seem crazy to most but I probably do know more about their personality than I do about...

What should be our main goal as Christians? We are to go to church to get closer to God, so that we can be changed, we don't go simply to be entertained. I personally find most church services to be fulfilling, I do enjoy myself while there... however, I feel like "entertainment" is too shallow and flippant a word to use for it but I feel like that’s what some are going to get. And some Sundays days I'm sleepy in morning service because I'm human, but I go to be faithful, and because I NEED too. We NEED to learn, we can't learn enough about God, we can't get close enough...But in today’s society you do hear a lot of complaining, that “old fashioned” churches don’t do enough “fun” things. That they don’t get up and shout and dance enough, there isn’t enough going on. People complain that although they go all the time, they still don’t have money or good health. Or that they got something from God but haven’t had a “yes” answer again and I’ll refer you ...

As I was watching the TCA's last night I thought, this is amazing. PLL has won almost every award they have been nominated for, for the past 5 years. Us fans are so dedicated, but also it's a good show. I'm not sure many people realize this but the way PLL is written and shot, is not like other shows, it's different. It has a classic story feel to it, it takes me back to a time when the people who made tv and movies thought about every little detail, every word, every facial expression. It never followed the typical tv-mystery formula.  I started to watch eye candy and it was pretty good but I stopped because it made me want to delete facebook. Later I found out they revealed their version of "-a" and it was the worst possible choice, I thought "PLL would never go with someone that obvious" I hoped the show would pick someone that makes sense with every detail, that this has to have been planned from day 1. I thought that PLL wouldn't give in t...

I get really frustrated when people tell me things like "it's just a song/tv show/book/etc." or "you care too much about that" or "you're obsessed" ... for one thing, I'm not sure what most people do, I do know most of the time people are consuming some sort of art (mostly tv) and they think if they don't care much and just watch it casually that it isn't affecting them, which isn't true... I guess I'll use a metaphor, when you consume art in a casual manner you become a mirror for those things being portrayed, you aren't aware or doing it on purpose, but over time, what you see or hear does start being reflected... when you do care about the content and contexts, and analyze what you consume (like I do) you are more like a microscope, you will take what you see or hear and analyze every aspect... (should this character have done this? is this realistic? am I like this person? should I be nicer? what does this song mean? is ...

there are 2 common interpretations of holly golightly. Men tend to think of her as a "gold-digging social climber" who is mean to the poor guys that buy her things.  And then females tend to see her beauty and cute outfits and admire her for her independence, and laugh because she is a "cool man-eater". They like the character as a trend, as a way to seem glamorous in their own taste in literature or movies.  After watching it myself, I'd have to say that neither of these are correct at all. These reviews, and general opinions, were the reason I didn't want to watch it to begin with. I should have just ignored those because they are inaccurate.  I cried for half of the movie, because she was a broken girl, and a survivor. Yet, she was unable to let herself love truly until she had nothing to lose. She is a very realistic character and very complex but likable in my opinion, she didn't simply love glamour and money, she wanted an interesting life and t...

Not feeling like thinking today, so I'm taking a break from the female musician series this week. Instead I am just going to post some random, cool videos in this blog, some from PLL and some about PLL, and some other cool songs. I'll be keeping the focus on talented females though. this scene was epic, it was so well edited and the intensity behind what's going on is well portrayed by this. found this one too.  it's very heartbreaking this makes me feel sad for Jason and Alison... this one just makes me feel bad for ali, but also it makes me admire her. alison is so misunderstood. this is a great song, set to clips from "one night with the king" a movie about queen Esther  random song I love  I love this movie, it's one of my favorites. Even though it's one of the saddest I've ever seen there is truth in it. Truth and good always wins in the end. The truth will eventually be revealed and love, true and re...

read this picture post first:   Let me tell you about what girls know about things that hurt Most guys don't turn a girl down that they don't want a relationship with, you know what they do? They pretend like they do want one, they know they don't. but tell you they do, they lie and say they love you and after doing everything they can to get a girl to fall in love with them, all at once they get sick of sleeping with you,  they stop answering texts and calls, but girls have to be "chill" and "cool"; after not hearing from the guy for a week, the guy that told you last week that he could see buying a house with you, you start to get frustrated and confused and angry but you try to fight it, and wait for a response, but none comes, so eventually you get sick of waiting and you don’t even care if he ends things, you just want him to tell you something so you have some closure, so you send a text telling him how you feel an...