writing, music and all things my opinion

I just had an epiphany, like I am crying about "the breakup" and it didn't hit me fully until yesterday when I saw he was still wearing his ring... and I'm really sad for him, and I felt crazy for a minute because other people say it's weird or crazy to care about anyone famous because you don't know them... then I started thinking about it.... 90% of the people I know in real life, generally share nothing personal with me. Most, if not all the time, people gossip, talk about  the weather, talk about current events, or anything besides how they truly feel about things. Deep, personal insecurities never come up ... and some songwriters (I know from experience) put themselves into songs, they pour their hearts out when they write, and these 2 people might be the 2 songwriters that do that the MOST, they both just wear their hearts on their sleeves in their writing, so it might seem crazy to most but I probably do know more about their personality than I do about...

What should be our main goal as Christians? We are to go to church to get closer to God, so that we can be changed, we don't go simply to be entertained. I personally find most church services to be fulfilling, I do enjoy myself while there... however, I feel like "entertainment" is too shallow and flippant a word to use for it but I feel like that’s what some are going to get. And some Sundays days I'm sleepy in morning service because I'm human, but I go to be faithful, and because I NEED too. We NEED to learn, we can't learn enough about God, we can't get close enough...But in today’s society you do hear a lot of complaining, that “old fashioned” churches don’t do enough “fun” things. That they don’t get up and shout and dance enough, there isn’t enough going on. People complain that although they go all the time, they still don’t have money or good health. Or that they got something from God but haven’t had a “yes” answer again and I’ll refer you ...

Because, well I just had to....  Game on Marlene... lol

As I was watching the TCA's last night I thought, this is amazing. PLL has won almost every award they have been nominated for, for the past 5 years. Us fans are so dedicated, but also it's a good show. I'm not sure many people realize this but the way PLL is written and shot, is not like other shows, it's different. It has a classic story feel to it, it takes me back to a time when the people who made tv and movies thought about every little detail, every word, every facial expression. It never followed the typical tv-mystery formula.  I started to watch eye candy and it was pretty good but I stopped because it made me want to delete facebook. Later I found out they revealed their version of "-a" and it was the worst possible choice, I thought "PLL would never go with someone that obvious" I hoped the show would pick someone that makes sense with every detail, that this has to have been planned from day 1. I thought that PLL wouldn't give in t...

I get really frustrated when people tell me things like "it's just a song/tv show/book/etc." or "you care too much about that" or "you're obsessed" ... for one thing, I'm not sure what most people do, I do know most of the time people are consuming some sort of art (mostly tv) and they think if they don't care much and just watch it casually that it isn't affecting them, which isn't true... I guess I'll use a metaphor, when you consume art in a casual manner you become a mirror for those things being portrayed, you aren't aware or doing it on purpose, but over time, what you see or hear does start being reflected... when you do care about the content and contexts, and analyze what you consume (like I do) you are more like a microscope, you will take what you see or hear and analyze every aspect... (should this character have done this? is this realistic? am I like this person? should I be nicer? what does this song mean? is ...

My mom said something very profound yesterday, she said "in this country there are people with different beliefs, and they have a right to that (God gave us freewill) and while some of those people will kill people who disagree, being bold as a christian is not about going around forcing people to believe the way we do, being bold for us means that even if someone were to put a gun to our head and tell us to give up our faith, we are to die for our faith" That is very true, while the world's way is to try and force their beliefs, religions or opinions on others, christians are supposed to stand out. Other's kill, literally (or figuratively by bullying) for what they think or believe, christians are different, we are supposed to die for ours. That doesn't mean agreeing with others or keeping quiet about the truth, but this attitude that we are supposed to go around telling people what they are doing that's a sin before they've ever even been in church, it...

Okay I have to talk about this some more, because I just can't stand it. Look, it's alright if you don't like Alison, everyone has a right to their opinions, plus Ali has done some awful things. All I'm asking is for people to step back and ask themselves why they hate Alison. Did you ever ask yourself? At first I wasn't even sure this that this is a feminist thing, because people don't hate Mona the way they hate Alison and Mona is also a girl. Then I thought about it and I thought; okay so maybe it's sort of a feminist thing after all. Let's compare Mona and Alison for a minute. At a very young age both of these girls realized what most girls don't realize until they are in their 20's. Some don't ever realize it at all. At around 13 years old Mona and Alison not only realized that women and girls are treated unfairly and judged based on what they can do for men, they both mastered manipulating this fact as if it were a game of Mario. No ma...

I'm someone that loves to find the deeper meaning in things, and I usually can catch on pretty quickly. What I didn't realize until Heather Hogan pointed it out in a recap was that on "pretty little liars" there is something going on. I posted what she said on my facebook and I'll summarize it, the dollhouse was doing to the girls, what rosewood had already been doing to them, and what in real life, our life, society does to us. A lot of the subtle commentaries I picked up on, because it's not that hard. In season 1 we get that even the best of mom's (ashley marin) says to her daughter "you CAN'T mess up... in this town, what people think of you matters" that sets the stage for the entire show. I love Ashley but she sleeps with a cop so he will drop shoplifting charges against hanna, setting the example that it doesn't matter if you actually do the right thing. It only matters if people don't find out about your mistakes. People say t...

   A few months ago, when the electric was out, I still had battery on my laptop and nothing to do. I tried to write more of the mystery short story I have been working on, but I couldn't. I knew I had something to write, so I just started writing and this is what came out. I don't know if this is it, but I ended it with room to add more stories about him, true stories. If anyone wants to send me a private message of something he did that could fit in with this, please do and we will see what happens.          "There was a man, he was very unique, just about everything he did  wasn't  considered normal. Yet, everyone he had met liked him, and called him a great man. That man was my grandpa. He grew up in the country, and was born with slight hearing loss. But he worked hard his entire life, and went to school until the sixth grade. School was harder for him than most because of his hearing issues. But that was okay because he liked ...

there are 2 common interpretations of holly golightly. Men tend to think of her as a "gold-digging social climber" who is mean to the poor guys that buy her things.  And then females tend to see her beauty and cute outfits and admire her for her independence, and laugh because she is a "cool man-eater". They like the character as a trend, as a way to seem glamorous in their own taste in literature or movies.  After watching it myself, I'd have to say that neither of these are correct at all. These reviews, and general opinions, were the reason I didn't want to watch it to begin with. I should have just ignored those because they are inaccurate.  I cried for half of the movie, because she was a broken girl, and a survivor. Yet, she was unable to let herself love truly until she had nothing to lose. She is a very realistic character and very complex but likable in my opinion, she didn't simply love glamour and money, she wanted an interesting life and t...