writing, music and all things my opinion

what is suffering? what causes it? well first of all, let's start somewhere near the beginning... "17  And unto Adam he said, Because thou hast hearkened unto the voice of thy wife, and hast eaten of the tree, of which I commanded thee, saying, Thou shalt not eat of it: cursed is the ground for thy sake; in sorrow shalt thou eat of it all the days of thy life;" Genesis 3:17 so the earth became cursed because of Adam's sin, all of creation and everyone that was to be born was now punished because of the sin of Adam. This is where suffering comes from...sin. The original sin caused all disease and any other "natural" affliction. But it's the sinfulness of all mankind that causes much more suffering.  Greed is the reason for people starving.  Lust is cause for abortion, which is murder. Hatred is the cause of all sorts of evil deeds. why does God "allow" this? In the old testament He didn't always,  for example when man became o...

it's so important to have supportive people around you, especially if you've been emotionally abused... I know this because I don't really have much of that, everything my ex tried to force on me, when I tell people, or when anyone stands up against those things I keep hearing that he was right, that those things he tried to force on me, are right... it's like the entire world agrees with him... I think that's why I can't get away from the anger, because each time I do or say something he would have disapproved of, I get the same disapproval from society, I feel like the entire world is taking his side but I KNOW I'm not wrong, God is the only one who is there by my side and He keeps reminding me that He is the one that got me out of that, so that CLEARLY means I was right in never "obeying" that psychopath... so the more people buckle down and try to convince me that I should be someone I'm not, the more I hear my ex, the more I distrust those...

I used to love baking, I didn't mind cooking or doing "girly" things... Being in an abusive relationship changed that... he told me I shouldn't do anything as a hobby, that would draw attention to myself, stuff that wasn't "housewife hobbies" ...all my hobbies were supposed to be about pleasing him... he didn't think I should write or do any art... That I should just bake (which I liked doing) or learn to knit (like is this real life) he tried to tell me how to dress and what to eat... I always laughed in his face about all of it because NEVER in a million years would I EVER let a man on this earth tell me what to do, so I didn't think it affected me so much until I tried to enjoy baking and I don't, when I get asked to do anything "housewife" related my blood starts boiling with rage because no one is going to turn me into that, that's my mentality even though I used to enjoy some of those things on my own... I know it's wr...