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Wrote this about a week after Chris died

Grief is such a stupid word, it's minimizing and it sounds common and non threatening, like "passed away" or "mourning" it's the sugarcoated words we use to make sure no one feels uncomfortable or intruded on by our pain or the terrible things that happen I don't feel grief, I feel heartbroken, and lonely, angry and defensive and depressed and it sucks, I can't be around people or ill have to fight tears or be "rude" because I don't feel like talking about the weather or something, or have to lie and say I'm fine when I'm not fine, I started to do laundry on Friday and forgot all about it until today, I don't feel like going out and having fun, I don't want to do my daily tasks or work on things I have to do or clean or any of it, it's a struggle to get out of bed... I don't want to talk about it, I don't want to think about it but it won't leave me alone

girl power, it's not new for me

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This line, in this movie was one of the many things I can look back on in my life that lets me know who I am, who I always was and who I'm meant to be. I remember as soon as she said this I felt something amazing. See what I hear most of the time is that people who start being like this, who stand up for human rights. Who stand up for what is right. Are brainwashed by hollywood propaganda. I'm not defending the people in hollywood, not everything they do is good, in fact it's mostly corrupt and there's a lot of discrimination within hollywood and all media as well. But here's something else, they don't have an agenda, they don't care if it's domocrat or republican, they care about money. And the people who work in hollywood are usually artists, artists see things that most people don't and they have ways of working their own beliefs into things. Those things get past the people in charge with ease as long as it will make them money. They aren't

Seven Day Poem Puzzle- answer

envy gluttony  greed lust pride sloth wrath and these are the 7 deadly sins, although this list is not in the Bible, these things are sinful and lead to self destruction. what I found interesting is that when I was thinking about these and researching about it, I found one list that described them all but sloth was a little more than what we usually hear. It said sloth was not only being lazy and not doing anything, but also just not using your God given talents. That was a good one, and I agree, most people think that if you have a mediocre 9-5 and just "get by" then you will be the "winner at life" because you always hear people complaining about how millennials don't want to have a real job, or artists are just lazy and are just doing it to avoid a "real" job. But when I think about it, they are more lazy. I know because I have a "real" job and if I were lazy I could just go to work and do the bare minimum and go home and do no

Seven Day Poem Puzzle

there will be seven poems about a different subject, all relating to one another in some way and you can try and guess what they are individually and what connects them . This one will always grow and grow for every day that you don't let it go the things you wish upon the rest will eat you up until there is nothing left you give your time to get revenge but it's always going to fall on you  this spiteful sin tomorrow I will post the answer to the subjects and what connects them 

Seven Day Poem Puzzle

there will be seven poems about a different subject, all relating to one another in some way and you can try and guess what they are individually and what connects them . keeps piling up, things you let slip away you could fulfill a purpose or do nothing all day it's more than just an action, it's more than just a move it's about what you were made for, what you're meant to do you keep sitting on the sidelines hoping it's enough  but in the end it's got no meaning when enough is enough 

Seven Day Poem Puzzle

there will be seven poems about a different subject, all relating to one another in some way and you can try and guess what they are individually and what connects them . Watch your step before you fall means so much or nothing at all looking glass as big as the sky so great you don't even have to try come down from there looking at us yet we look at you like what's all the fuss if you have this trait then I'm afraid  we can't help you, come down, come down you must

Seven Day Poem Puzzle

there will be seven poems about a different subject, all relating to one another in some way and you can try and guess what they are individually and what connects them . the feeling you get deep within without a promise it's a sin though this feels right  it won't last the night wanting to just dig into your skin and pull you close  this is the one I seem to fail  at the most 

Seven Day Poem Puzzle

there will be seven poems about a different subject, all relating to one another in some way and you can try and guess what they are individually and what connects them. you want it all, in your mind you risk it all and can't be kind all that you can obtain for yourself leaving not one thing for anyone else  once you think it's enough you just need more there will never be satisfaction or a cure  everything you've got and somehow  you're the one that's poor 

Seven Day Poem Puzzle

there will be seven poems about a different subject, all relating to one another in some way and you can try and guess what they are individually and what connects them. Is it that you can't have to much or is too much not enough?  what keeps you going for this  consumption at the table with a cuff emptiness that drives you up the wall  come on when is enough, enough to just tell yourself "it might be time to stop can't I stop this" is just too rough to walk away and just let go and  put it to rest you're going to have to be tough 

seven day poem puzzle

there will be seven poems about a different subject, all relating to one another in some way and you can try and guess what they are individually and what connects them. you look to the left and you look to the right you don't hold it in your hand and you put up a fight the neighbor wants what they don't get to keep it's more than just a color, this monster goes deep this is one of how many things that are deadly if you could only look around it says it already you feel a void, so you fill the void but this is in your mind, not something you can avoid on the other side of the fence, things are the best but you can't reach and it won't satisfy you just to be a guest.